Scary times.
For the first time since Mark and I got married I was not able to make our house payment.
Our largest vendor has stopped supplying audio equipment for us because we are so far behind on our account.
This embarrasses me, makes me feel ashamed, like we are doing something wrong.
But, we are not alone.
On his route today Mark found out that one of the cabinet shops we do work for is closing their doors and has no idea what they will do. They had cut their crew down to just a couple of guys who had taken a huge cut in pay to try to keep the doors open but it wasn't enough.
I ran by the vet this morning to pick up long overdue wormer for the dogs, afraid Rufus was going to die if I didn't get him wormed (he is so skinny). The vet was running the place alone and I was the only customer. We talked for a long time - he is in the same shape - wishing he hadn't built a new house a couple of years ago or bought that travel trailer, wondering if he is going to be able to survive but can't afford to move anywhere else.
I am afraid. I can't dwell on the possibilities or I get sick, literally sick at my stomach.
I am so disappointed with our government and their lack of understanding, their total ignorance or maybe total lack of interest in what is really happening out here in middle class America.
All I can do is hope and hang on to what faith I have left that things will pick up at least enough for us to make a living. I don't want much, to be able to pay our bills and buy groceries and I'm good.
The politicians need to come down from their high tower and recognize, before it is too late.
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Oh A, I feel so bad. I wish there were something I could do to help you.
Things seem so difficult for everyone right now. I have been looking for a full time job since October and haven't found one yet. I don't even get interviews.
Everyone I talk to seems to be in the same boat. Everyone is willing to work, but there are no jobs.
To make matters worse, all of our utility companies have raised their prices and charged us extra deposits they say are based on the amount of our bills over the last year. How in this time of economic depression can anyone even fathom raising prices? It makes no sense to me.
us too, Sandy.. PEC is killing us. They charge us a "peak time" charge - whatever the hell that is- and if we don't use a certain amount of electricity every month we are still charged for it AND a penalty charge for not using it!! The shop bill this month is $377.00 and we don't even have heat in the shop. We are looking at that new Bloom Energy Box, just waiting to hear more info about it since it is so new.
I'm sorry you're afraid, A. There's nothing worse. I don't have anything to say to make it better either. I'm just sorry.
A- I've been back to this post a few times. Since I read it first I have been holding you guys in the Light. I'm so glad you wrote the post, I am glad I read it, any response feels so inadequate.
And now I am going to google Bloom Energy Box because I have no idea what that is.
I'm sorry, friend. (I haven't been on the blogs since A's been sick and I've been sick...barely keeping up with fb.) Just want to say: yes, it sucks. Keep your head up if you can.
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