Frosty this morning, the day was slow to warm up but by late this afternoon it was nice to be outside even if I did have to wear a sweatshirt on my walk around the yard. I wish you could walk with me, around the back of the house the lily-of-the-valley is blooming and in the back yard north of the house between the house and the cedar break the japonicas stand eight to ten feet tall blooming in profuse hot pink. Into the secret garden where the new bed of early bulbs is starting to bloom there are a few lilies, one purple hyacinth out of the three I planted last fall, a few sunny twinkles - in two years there will be many, many more so many that they will have to be divided and moved else where - the beginning of spider lilies that I will see again in the fall, naked lady leaves, etc, etc... the path that runs up a little hill through tall japonica, bright yellow forsythia,and soft pink flowering almond bushes is carpeted with soft cool green moss so thick it silences your foot step. At the summit of the tiny grade is the entrance into the garden. I'm sad every time I walk that way to see the broken cedar that will have to be taken out some pretty Saturday when I can talk Levi into getting out his chainsaw.
From there I walk around Levi's house and up around the drive-way. Today I sat and contemplated what I want to do in that area this year. Lilies. I love lilies. They are by far my favorite. I ordered a gardening book about lilies this morning. I sat on the bench and envisioned more lilies, trying to figure where-in-the-world I can put MORE. I already need to divide and move what is there, but, I will find a spot.

This is what makes me happy.

Learning to make perfect hot rolls, watching my beautiful yard come alive, sitting in the sun, rough-housing with my big white dog - red dog doesn't like it, he just wants to be loved on.

Mark keeps me in touch with reality and the outside world, his life is interesting but in all honesty I don't want to be a part of that aspect of his life.

I am quiet content to be here, glad when Seth came home to hear about his day, expecting some play time soon with Zoe Beth who comes to see me every night, planning a movie with the kids, but content to be alone, too.