On this journey there are many twists and turns,just when you think you have your life right on track there is always something right around the corner to throw you for a loop.
I, We are fixing to start yet another leg of this journey.
I have always told Seth (and question him on it often)that if he ever felt the need to go back to church that I would be willing to go, if he came to the point of needing to be there.
He called me on it this week.... he needs that in his life. And me being the great and wonderful Mother that I am (HA!)will suck it up and take him.
I am truly trying to go into this with a good attitude. I have no idealistic notions about church. I know what church is and what church is not. I want to approach this as an opportunity to get to know some new people, rekindle some old friendships. I want to love people. I don't want to evangelize anyone and I especially don't want to offend anyone with the things I do and mostly with what I don't believe anymore. I will have to be careful what I say and to whom.
Mostly, I want to give Seth the opportunity to make his own choices about God.
6 comments:
It's great how you listen to Seth.
You are brave, Aola. Not sure I could do it now.
Hey A, I was wondering...I've been doing a bunch of reading on parenting, specifically in infancy (feeding, crying, etc.). Did you have a "method to your madness" when you were taking care of little ones?
Kristen - my only "method" was just to figure out what worked for me and baby and do it. Each child is sooooo different. I learned early on not to give a rats ass what the books or anyone else said.
If you try to force a child to do stuff they are not ready to do it only brings frustration for you both.
Sure you need to read lots of books so you will have some idea of what has worked for others and so you will know some of what to expect but as far as I can tell there are so set rules that work for everyone... your instincts will tell you what is best for your baby and you.
Each one of mine required something different from me.
Levi never slept and ate like every 30 minutes the first month, breast fed until he was 18 months, potty trained before he was 2.
Em was the perfect baby, slept well, breast fed until she was 2.
Seth was HUNGRY, screamed all the time unless he had something to suck on (my only one to take a pacifier). He weaned himself at 8 months (they all weaned themselves), but sucked on a bottle til he was almost 4.
well, i suspect this will happen to me one day with judah. the thought of going back now makes me feel emotionally tired and nauseous.
erica - me too!! every time I think about it I get kind of sick at my stomach. Mark says the only way I will be able to do it is if he buys me a gag :)
My only hope is that I truly do love God and enjoy the fellowship of other people and I can't be fooled anymore with the lies and hype and manipulation.
I'm sure you'll be just fine. You are a great mom!
I've been thinking a lot about this step in our journey as well. I know it will mean so much to my grandma if we go to church with her once we are settled in over there. I had the opportunity to meet the pastor and his wife while we visited last week. It freaked me out a little that they are the same age as me, but other than that they seemed like normal comfortable people.
I've always felt comfortable at my grandma's church. The people there seem to really love one another. They do have legalistic tendancies which is the one thing that's always been though to swallow for me, but like you I think I am past the point where I feel like I need to convert everyone to my way of thinking. I think I can take it for what it's worth and accept that we are all just trying to find our way.
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