Friday, January 15, 2016

I have to wonder sometimes if every human is as messed up in the head as I am?

So much fear and anxiety, so much hatred and negativity .... Once again, fear and loathing is the way I feel most of the time.

I dreamed last night that I was changing a baby's diaper in the trunk of my car in the middle of a huge, empty parking lot. I just got a new diaper part way on him and he peed all over the place. I looked down and there was a towel on the ground. I reached for it and suddenly it was out of my reach. I walked to where it was, seemed far. I looked up and I was in the middle of this parking lot and a semi was heading right at me. I looked back at the car where I had left the baby and someone was walking towards it. They grabbed my baby and threw it like a football.....

Fear. Anxiety. Insecurities.

In all of my dreams.

Never anything pleasant.

2 comments:

Prabhdeep Kaur said...

wonderful!

Sandra said...

You are not alone!