It sometimes takes a little while, but, I can usually manage to pull myself up out of the darkness I allow to creep in on me...

I'm feeling better about life in general or at least not feeling as down as I was right after Rufus disappeared.

We lost a huge job at about the same time because we had someone go into a church and tell the leadership (in the church) a bunch of lies about us and our products. I told Mark just to look at as Karma saving him from what looked like a lot of nothing but trouble to me. The church was old, the building historic, they were never, ever going to be happy with what he put in there. They only thought they wanted a huge, digital PA system in their Methodist Church.. and when it stuck out like a sore thumb, was way too loud, and no one could properly run it.. it would be our fault.

I spend most of my days piddling around doing what little I have to do to maintain our household. The most cooking I have done was this past weeks feast, which was small in comparison to what I normally do. I read, a LOT, these days. I have read all 16 of the Stephanie Plum series, plus the 4 "between the numbers" books, plus a couple of others. Ever once in a while I find something to do outside.. Levi has a wild hair ever once in a while and wants to cut wood. I have done a little transplanting of some perennials.

I have Zoe for a few hours almost every day. She loves to play on her computer, she has 4 or 5 different games that she has pretty much mastered. We still watch lots of Land Before Time videos. (guess it's better than Barney) On the prettier days I try to spend some time letting her run outside.

This is Seth's last week of taking GED classes.. the big test is scheduled for next Monday and Tuesday... cross your fingers, say a little prayer that he passes the first time. I can't see that he has made much effort and if he flunks the test I just know I am going to be REALLY PISSED. We are scheduled to go tour the facility at ACM next Thursday. Then it will be on to figuring out the financing.

Gonna go read now... love you guys.