as I sit in my dark, cool office looking out the front door of the shop I wonder.... or maybe wander is more to the point. My mind wanders as I wonder ... how about that.

I am reading a book that I randomly chose off the library shelf, I don't really like it. It is one of those books that "they" say is good, not just good, but Pulitzer Prize winning good. I keep reading it thinking that surely I will soon come to the part that made it "good". She uses too much ... there are too many adjectives, too much flowery language, phrases that don't even make sense.. aubergine dreams.. what the hell is that? When I'm finished with it, if I ever finish it, I will let you know if it was good or not.

I am wondering this morning what good heat like this is, surely it has a purpose. It makes pecans and okra, all things very Okie. Maybe that is why we are so tenacious - raised up in boil-your-brain heat or maybe why we Okies are mostly stupid.

I'm feeling very ....... (looking for a word)...... tender this morning. The guys left early, took the truck to Ft Worth to pick up Seth's new bike. I am all at once sooo excited for him, talk about a dream come true. He has been wanting a crotch rocket for years (I would NOT allow it) but you come to the place where he turns 18 and can do what he wants and I have sense enough not to push it past that point. His dream bike has always been a Ducati but he never really imagined that he would ever own one! Then yesterday, lo and behold, he is searching through websites and came across a bright yellow, in perfect condition, Ducati for sale in his price range. We left two messages for the seller, no response, trying not to be disappointed the phone rang about 7:00 last night and the nicest guy on the other end telling Seth he was the first to call, it had only been listed a couple of hours, come get it, it's yours!!! And, on the other hand, of course, being Mom... I am terrified for him and wondering What The Hell are you doing helping him buy a Ducati??????

I suppose that I have to trust that if Karma likes him enough to make his dreams come true that it will all be okay.