My emotions are just off the freaking chart tonight. I hate, let me re-state that... I HATE DRAMA.
Saturday night Seth went to spend the night with a buddy who has his own apartment in Ada. He is a good kid and I trust Seth so this was no big deal. But, my instincts told me something was up and I told Mark.. "he's gonna come home and ask to move in with Dakotah." sure 'nuf, Sunday night he rolls in, comes to the office (our spot to talk) and told me he wanted to move out.
I knew it was coming so at least I wasn't taken by surprise. We discussed what all that would entail and I told him if that is what he really wanted to do I wouldn't try to stop him although I didn't think it was a good idea and that the timing is not right.
By Monday night I felt like my heart would break as he cleaned his room and picked out things to take with him. At one point I went upstairs to talk while he worked but fell apart as soon as I got up there and had to leave.
But... since then Dakotah has been dragging his feet about the move, pretty much ignoring Seth's calls. He finally told Seth that his girlfriend wasn't happy about Seth moving in. (she doesn't live there) and then tonight he called Seth and asked to come over. I'm hoping that Dakotah tells him he has changed his mind about letting Seth move in.
I asked Seth this afternoon if he would be okay if that happened and he didn't seem to bothered by the possibility. I told him then that I would prefer that he wait until he turns 18 next August and has some time to save up some money for the move.
So, now we are smack in the middle of this teenage drama and thinking about it tonight I AM JUST ANGRY.. everything about it makes me angry. The fact that Seth is such a selfish, stupid teenager makes me furious. stupid, stupid teenagers.
It is probably a good thing he is spending the night because the way I feel right now I would probably blow up and say things I regretted.....
stupid, stupid, stupid...
This is one of those days that I wish I had never had kids.
8 comments:
My Dear One,
I'm so sorry that you are having this drama! Seth sounds like a good kid 95% of the time, and in this day and age he probably deserves a parade.
This short-sighted and ill considered move is proof that he's not quite an adult yet, nor is his buddy.
When I think of what I was like at 13-22, I'm amazed my mom didn't opt for retroactive abortion.
Hang in there my dear. My phone is always on.
<3
I can't tell you how often I want to ask, online, does anyone else have those days where you wish you hadn't had children? Thank you for answering that question for me. I'm sorry this is all happening. Don't forget he is a really good kid.
They should know better than to make you angry by now. :)
You know it's going to be okay though, right?
I know that I'm not too far out of the stupid teenager stage, but I'm glad I wasn't the type of teenager to only think things through part of the way. I'm told that I was not a typical teen. lol
I know that you'd love to throttle him. Levi and I would love to do it for you. But one day he will wake up and it will dawn on him that: "Hey Mom is right."
Drama sucks more when it's teenage drama. It'll pass.
No words of wisdom, just a hug (or a punching bag, whichever one you need most) being virtually sent your way.
anj - I had a dear friend who had 5 children. After my 'urgent' hysterectomy at age 30 I was very sad and talked to her about never having children. She looked at me and took my hand and said
"My Dear, I'm the mother of five - - and it's all a crock of shit!"
I'm sure many mothers would disagree, but I laughed and felt much better. I"m also content now to be the best "Auntie Cara" that I can.
Aola - - I love you.
HUGS to you!! Raising kids has its hard times but I would not trade mine for anything! If they were not here there would not be the title" Auntie" before Caras name. :0) I am far from done raising them and I am sure there will be more days where I will see red too!
Much love and hugs!!
Aola, I know it doesn't help much right now but these damn, dumb teen-agers usually grow up just fine ... AND I've come to believe it is BECAUSE of us! Mine was also 17 and wanted to live with her boyfriend .. I told her not while I am legally, morally & financially responsible for you. She had already graduated from high school. So they got married instead. Not the best solution, but now I have four of the greatest grandsons any one could ever ask for. Hang on ... it's all worth it, I promise.
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