You raise your sons to be strong, independent, competent. You pray for them to make the most of their God-given talents, to be able to live a life that is meaningful.... but, OMG, when it comes time for that to happen WHAT DO YOU DO???
We all love the new guy we signed to our little indie record label. You know, one of those people you just instantly like and feel like you have known forever. Hell, I'm already treating him like one of my kids (he said that was okay, especially if that means he gets to come eat with us). He is talented, personable, driven, and seemingly has his head screwed on straight. He is 35 years old and has already dealt with a lot of the issues that younger musicians struggle with. He is very happily married to an equally adorable young woman. AND, he has asked Seth to be his full time drummer.
drum roll, please....
This means me letting Seth go.
Tildon is playing in Oklahoma,Louisiana, Texas, Arkansas and his goal is to be playing at least 10 gigs a month.
Seth would be gone,on the road, with Tildon and band days at a time, long distances, without Dad around.
At first I was excited about it, then the reality of it hit me and it sort of freaked me out. So, of course, I sat Seth down to talk.
"you know this means you will be gone for days at a time without any of us around?"
"you know this means we will have to push to get school done so you can take your GED and be free to do this?"
you know, don't you that your Mama is freaking out on the inside right now...
he looks at me and says "you know I will be doing what I have dreamed of doing, what I have been working towards for 9 years?"
who made him so damn smart???
so... I suppose this thing is fixing to happen (deep breathing from this side of the computer).. Tildon is going to try to ease out of the current drummer and into Seth being full time so I don't know how long it will actually be before he goes full time, but, I have a feeling it will be too soon for me and not nearly quick enough for Seth.
say a little prayer for me :)
4 comments:
Wow oh wow. That takes a whole lot of letting go, quickly too. Holding you in the Light.
Congratulations Seth!
Big hugs to you A. I know it can't be easy. That letting go part is so tricky!
How proud you must be of your beautiful talented man-child.
Cheri is battling these same feelings, as Scott is getting more and more of his own life.
This is the culmination of all of your years of hard work and teaching. A smart, capable grown person capable of sustaining themselves, and the added privilege of getting to do something he loves.
You are in my heart, as always!
<3
Sooo amazing.
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