Every once in a while I have these moments of anxiety over all the problems in the world. It's like I try and try not to think about them, to just ignore them and hope they go away because it's just so big and it overwhelms my brain and then my brain goes "TILT",but sometimes I can't push the thoughts away and they rush in and I have these moments of despair/trying to figure out what to do to fix it/total freaking out over it.

I've noticed it usually happens when I've read something.

A couple of days ago I got my new "Mother Earth News" and it (as always)sends me into a tail spin of wanting to live off the grid, raise all my own food, buy everything locally. So, I've been shopping, again, on the Oklahoma Food Coop website which I love to do but I never actually get so far as buying anything because it costs so much more than Walmart and then I have these conversations with myself because I know these farmers need to be supported and our environment is going to hell in a handbasket and it's all my fault for not doing SOMETHING and I feel guilty but I just can't seem to make myself pay $7.00 a pound for colby cheese.

So, I promise myself that when the farmers market (such as it is) opens I will buy more stuff this year.

I did pay almost $8.00 for 3 energy saver light bulbs the other day and am going to buy some more soon to replace all of our old bulbs.
I pay almost $10.00 a pound for organic fair trade coffee. Although I did get a really cool surprise the other day - because I am now a regular customer of coffefool.com they are giving me a discount off of everything I buy, everytime - cool, huh?

I keep telling myself that every little thing we can do to save our environment helps, it has to help a little that I chose not to use poisons or chemicals of any kind on our land, that I plant lots of trees and flowers and always try to plant things that attract good insects. I yell a lot at my family to turn off what they aren't using.

Rachelle asked us to commit to using half our normal gasoline consumption in the month of April. I can't commit to half but I did commit to not make any unnecessary trips this month. We live 15 miles from town so we have to make every trip count.

So, during this month, April, Earth Day month what can you commit to doing that will help save our Mother?