I was reading on Anj's blog earlier and had a moment... you know, a moment.
I'm not sure what to call that moment. Anj might say a moment of clarity. I would have at one time said that it was a holy moment, an opening to something divine...

to be honest it sent a shiver of almost panic through my heart. To be even more honest I'm not sure I even want those kinds of moments.

Okay since I am being honest here, Anj's post hit a note of longing in me, a longing to connect to something bigger, something outside of myself.

I have always said that even where I am now, I may not believe in much but I still do and have always believed in God and desired to have a connection to the spiritual. I'm just not sure what that looks like anymore. I can walk my walking trails and see the beauty and mystery of God in nature. But, I want nothing whatsoever to do with church or churchy people. But, something in that post struck a hidden desire (so hidden it surprised me that it was even there)to meet with others.

That's when the panic button was pushed. It dawned on me that I was being tugged on by something spiritual. A few nights ago we had supper with a couple who kind of lagged behind when everyone else left because they wanted to approach us about meeting with them (on a regular basis) to discuss spiritual things. They don't want anything churchy like a Bible study or prayer group, they just want to talk about God.

I had pretty much dismissed the idea until now.

WoW! I think this calls for some meditation/walking and trying to be open.